The struggle of Youth: What is happening to me? May 19, 2008
Posted by mirla in : Feelings, Musings , add a commentThe question is generic, comon, and to the point. However, it is a question that I ask to you now, in light of my own inner disturbances.
I act…realativly normal. Minus the obsessions with the internet and Pokemon but…niether of those are really pressing for me. After all, my friends are far more off the wall then I could ever dream to be. I am a realativly happy personwhen I’m around others too.
But…whenever I am alone, I get the distinct feeling that I am slowly trying to de-evolve from it all. I want to isolate, I want to shut everything in. Get as far away from the rest of humanity as possible… getting the impulse to lie for my benefit, and hurt for the sake of furthering my isolation. No matter how happy I am when I’m with others. It’s really maddening.
Despite what my T has told me (granted, she has some limited information…not that great at talking) I have my doubts that this is your run-of-the-mill case of introversion, and being an INFP. Or that it’s a result of some kind of lack of sleep, and I certainly feel like this isn’t a comon problem for my peers. But then again, you never know.